"Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring."

If anyone out there has really been following my blog, you have probably realized it is all over the place. Honestly, I write about whatever is happening in my life at that time. My life is really crazy sometimes, so I end up writing about all of the above: Beauty, Sex, Food, TV, Love, Partying, Friends, Family, Inspiration, and really the list is never ending. Today it is all about the Parties. I am young and I want to experience it all, live with no regrets. Is that even Possible ? To live without regrets? So this weekend I partied. I drank, I danced, I made new friends, had fun with my man, and I puked. Lol. Looking back I would do it all over again! Yes getting sick really sucked, but to be honest I'm not one of those girls that goes out and parties every weekend so no I CAN'T drink like a fish! but I tried. This was the very first country party I went too! Not some house party but a party way out there, bonfire included. My boyfriend grew up in the country and his family lives there and I'm more from the suburbs. At first, I wasn't sure if I really wanted to go..I mean I hate walking in somewhere you dont know anyone, and I didn't want to be all over my boyfriend the whole night. I wanted him to have some fun too without me right beside him. Walking in at first I was a little uneasy but after I got one shot in me I was good! There was not one person that wasn't happy to meet me and have some fun. Normally, girls don't walk up to me and just start talking to me. I have never really had tons of girlfriends, just a few close friends. That is what I HATE about being a girl. A lot of girls are bitches, and I'm not into all that so you will find me chilling with the boys, which seems to make other girls even more mad. No you are not a slut, if you have a lot of guy friends. Thank goodness this party was full of chill people who just wanted to have some fun. Maybe that is the difference between a country party and the ones I am use too. Either way, I had some fun that I really needed! Looking back I would do it all over again! So is partying really that bad, if you do it in moderation? but back to reality this week for me..Work tonight.

Rainy day, Chocolate make it go away!

Today was just one of those days.. Woke up to my "parents" talking at 6:25 am this morning. "Does Samantha have class this morning?" Oh, how I wished I could have slept til exactly 6:30 when my alarm was suppose to go off. Before anyone could come in my room to wake me up or say one annoying word to me, I got up and headed for the bathroom. Ever notice how early in the morning if anyone says something to you before your ready to get up you want to bite their head off? Well a least I do. I could hear the cold rain pouring outside so i knew there was no point in straighting my hair. Gosh I regret signing up for an 8AM class so much sometimes. So when I went out to my car, which is my baby. I open the door to a soaked seat and water about an inch high in my floor board; apparently my sunroof is leaking! So with towels all over my seat I went to my stupid community college that is just like highschool. When I came home, all I wanted to do was relax..I work full time, I am a full time student and I get overwhelmed. My boyfriend goes to a university Three hours away from me and here lately we have been fighting a lot more than normal. Honestly, we fight because I miss him so much. Anyways, today sucked and I dont know where I am going with this cause I am so frustrated with so many things! Its not just about today..its so much more than that. Somehow BROWNIES always make me feel better! So I am baking, working with my hands, and eating to relieve some stress! Chocolate can you make my rainy day any better?!



Ingredients
• 3 sticks plus 2 tablespoons unsalted butter
• 12 ounces best-quality bittersweet chocolate
• 6 eggs
• 1 3/4 cups superfine sugar
• 1 tablespoon pure vanilla extract
• 1 1/2 cups plus 2 tablespoons all-purpose flour
• 1 teaspoon salt
• 1/2 cup white chocolate buttons, chips, or morsels
• 1/2 cup semisweet chocolate buttons, chips or morsels
• Approximately 2 teaspoons confectioners' sugar, for garnish
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• Special equipment: Baking tin (approximately 11 1/4 inches by 9 inches by 2 inches), sides and base lined with baking parchment.
Directions
Preheat the oven to 350 degrees F.
Melt the butter and dark chocolate together in a large heavy based pan over a low heat.
In a bowl or large measuring jug, beat the eggs together with the superfine sugar and vanilla extract.
Allow the chocolate mixture to cool a little, then add the egg and sugar mixture and beat well. Fold in the flour and salt. Then stir in the white chocolate buttons or chips, and the semisweet chocolate buttons or chips. Beat to combine then scrape and pour the brownie mixture into the prepared tin.
Bake for about 25 minutes. You can see when the brownies are ready because the top dries to a slightly paler brown speckle, while the middle remains dark, dense and gooey. Even with such a big batch you do need to keep checking on it: the difference between gooey brownies and dry ones is only a few minutes. Remember, too, that they will continue to cook as they cool.
To serve, cut into squares while still warm and pile up on a large plate, sprinkling with confectioners' sugar pushed with a teaspoon through a small sieve



Yummm ! Thank you food network.

Am I overreacting?

Okay so I try to encourage my boyfriend to be completely open with me about whatever he wants; I want him to let me know what he would like out of our relationship. I should call him my fiance since he has proposed to me with a ring and all but I'm not ready to tell my parents yet so we are waiting. We have been together about a year and yes I am in love with him. So we are very open about sex, and he has told me all of his fantasies; I want him to be able too. We don't hold anything back from each other which can cause a lot of arguments but its best we are both honest. So he has told me various sexual things he wants to try and some were shocking but I was fine with everything except one simple fantasy most men have! He told me one day he wanted to have a Three-some..its not uncommon at all for him to say that but it hurt me..I'm upset! Its stupid isn't it? It wasn't shocking, but to me I am just happy with him, I would never want someone else to be involved in something so intimate and it made me so upset..

Beauty:

"The nicest thing for me is sleep, then at least I can dream."
— Marilyn Monroe

"Beneath the makeup and behind the smile I am just a girl who wishes for the world."
— Marilyn Monroe

"I don't mind living in a man's world, as long as I can be a woman in it."
— Marilyn Monroe



"I've never fooled anyone. I've let people fool themselves. They didn't bother to find out who and what I was. Instead they would invent a character for me. I wouldn't argue with them. They were obviously loving somebody I wasn't."
— Marilyn Monroe

"Give a girl the right shoes, and she can conquer the world."
— Marilyn Monroe

"She was a girl who knew how to be happy even when she was sad. And that’s important—you know "
— Marilyn Monroe

"We are all of us stars, and we deserve to twinkle."
— Marilyn Monroe

"The real lover is the man who can thrill you by kissing your forehead or smiling into your eyes or just staring into space."
— Marilyn Monroe

New Day;

Today I woke up, did not go to my college classes because I still have a bit of pink eye, and somehow decided that I was going to make a blog. I guess facebook just got boring? No, but really I wanted to share all the lovely things in my life and well the NOT so lovely things. I know once my boyfriend sees this or I decide to tell him about it I will get the response that I need to find something better to do with my free time. Sadly, my free time these days is nonexistent between work, school, and sleep. Not to mention the one weekend I get off from work every month to go see Nicholas (my boyfriend) at his university 3 hours away! (where I got nasty pink eye at) So I have not completely decided what this blog will be about since I LOVE so many things: Cooking, shopping, fashion, make-up, psychology, and many various tv shows! My favorite right now being the Bad Girls Club, soooo entertaining! All of us girls can have a bad side! So for today I am going to sum this up with a favorite quote of mine, and maybe a clip from the Bad Girls Club lol

''Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone, and do not be troubled about the future, for it has yet to come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering."